Is this okay to feel???

A girl with the spectacles opposite to me with a smiling face I was freaking nervous and then there was the topic for our debate is money or love  what is that one thing for  the ultimate happiness??

    My mind was still  for a sec I couldn't think               clearly   as I had to speak for the topic in support of money I  didn't have any points  because deep down it's something that I was completely against. 

 I did try to talk but gave up I knew that I was going to lose but it made me happy .

Over the years it has just been about pleasures of the world and....was I happy??? No

The thing I was lacking was love, love not from anyone but from a guy that feeling of butterflies in your stomach that made my cheeks blush with joy, was this something too much for me to ask for...

My friends would say that girls shouldn't make the first move nothing mattered to me was it because of my low self esteem or attention seeking behaviour???

Now it isn't about ego or self-respect anymore I fought for what I want in my life irrespective of anything that comes the way is it the way we are conditioned as girls and guys or is it about much deeper issues that I had to deal with as a teenager.









 








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